the Dalaverse

Today sucks. Tomorrow promises to suck as well.

But, upside, then I'm totally and completely done. Just have to get through the next...30 or 32 hours, let's say.

Auuugggggggh.

I've got Fiona Apple's "Criminal" stuck in my head and no access to it here. Anybody? Bueller?

Mmmm. This one should've gone on the Fuck Mix, too.

Re: paper, it's like...it's there, and I'm reaching towards it, and I feel like it could be really GOOD because I picked out some quotes that connect with ideas that make sense, but I...just...can't...quite...TOUCH it....gahhh, it's frustrating, and I'm wasting yet more time bitching about it.

But really, can't I just not use Mary Daly? Because I feel like I've got enough to work with in Tillich and Boff, and Daly HATES the boys, and I can't use the boys' arguments then find something agreeable in Daly. Well, I guess I CAN, because I sort of have to, but it will be less...insular. I LIKE picking out what I can argue and arguing so fucking hard that you don't even notice whatever I've chosen to ignore. Makes no difference if I agree with it or not. I certainly don't agree with most of the boys' theology, but dammit, I can fight tooth and nail for them. For some reason, despite the fact that what Mary Daly is saying is actually closer to what I REALLY believe, I just go 'mehhhhhh.'

::frowns:: People need to stop letting me play devil's advocate. It gets into this place where this happens.

I DON'T WANT TO WRITE THIS PAPER!

Stupid, stupid, STUPID theologians...

Update: got four pages and then hit a WALL. Is this relevant to my thesis, or just pithy but useless summary of Tillich's idea of grace? Should I pop in a Daly paragraph? But then how can I do that when Daly builds upon Tillich's thoughts? And is it too early to forget about granola-crunchy Mr. Boff?

Fuck it. I'm gonna talk a walk.

ETA: chocolate is goooood. Also, I managed my Flex effectively this semester: $8.06, and less than 48 hours to go (WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!). We'll ignore the fact that I have over 200 meal blocks left, because I can't buy Big Kat bars with those.

Fuck it. Just...FUCK it. I cannot think Modern and Religious Thoughts any more tonight. I'll turn it back on in the morning.

Which means time to study Age of Absolutism. Religious war, WOOOOT!

This whole exam week sucked like unto a Hoover. Mostly because it was really, like, TWO weeks.

I don't have any brain thought connection things in my head. What little is left has to be conserved for AoA essay, because I have to ROCK the final because I got a B on one paper and a B on the midterm and I cannot accept getting a B overall from Dr. Adams, because DAMMIT. I will be saying "dude" and "awesome" a lot.

Or I might just drool.

Why do I do this to myself time and time again? I think I thrive on the abuse.

BTW, the Shins? Upload, if it's not too much trouble? Because fuck, I LOVE them.