the Dalaverse

So it's official. I mailed the letter to TAMU today with X I decline this offer. I will be attending University of Southampton. Well, the not-going-to-TAMU part is official -- I still have to notify Southampton of my acceptance and send them my final transcript.

To quote Ani, I am thirty-two flavors and then some. I am happy and sad and excited and scared and relieved. I called my mother, to say I mailed it and to ask if we were okay. She said, in her clipped I'm-annoyed-but-pretending-to-be-polite-so-you-can't-say-I-yelled voice, "Well, I had some other things for you to consider, but you've already mailed it, so." Then she had to go because of work. Whatever. I want things between she and I to be okay, but honestly? My dad's opinion matters more to me than anything in the world, and he thinks this thing I am doing is a little stupid but ultimately brave and admirable.

My mind's made up, but it was harder to actually put that letter in the mailbox and walk away than I'd thought it would be. I went and got a milkshake on my way to work to calm my nerves. Don't judge. And now I'm sitting here and should really get back to my data entry, but I just couldn't let the moment pass without comment.